That something

There is always that something that you want to do. Something spur of the moment fun. That sort of something. Maybe you want to try out for the swim team or become a gamer. It doesn't really matter what your big it thing is, as long as you stick with it. Maybe your at the beach and while no one is looking you want to climb the lifeguard chair and jump of, crashing into the warm sand. That something could even be a death defying stunt that only people in movies do. That type of something. Or it could be something not so dangerous like buying a lottery ticket. What if it was something mischievous. One time me and a couple of my friends broke my cousins vase and said it was my brother who did it. Today's something was a crazy something. I FINALLY KISSED LARRY. After all this time of crushing and flirting i finally took a step up. It was magicaly and to me death defying because... We were both sopping wet. Wierd right. We were wet because we were having a water fight with friends at the park. t all happened so fast. It was a wet romantic story. At least I think it was.

Lots of Blogging Love♥♥♥

especially to those who need it.lol.

The Gateway

Sometimes new things can be a big change, or they can be a small change. Everyone has been through different changes. A change could be anything. A change of heart (not literally), a change of mind (again not literally), and some physical changes as well. Changes normally totally scare the crap out of me. Well only big changes sometimes do, unless i want the change. Sometimes I can't take them or something goes wrong. Now i think I've learned how to go through with changes and allow myself to change as well. My own special gateway that guides me though. When my parents got divorced i was only six and to young to understand. Things change good or bad. My gateway is pretty much my happy place. I don't meditate but i sit on my bed and imagine happy things. I call it my gateway because when i think of a happy place, for some reason i think of having to open a gate to get inside. I think there has to be an opening or something like that. That's just my imagination, which i love to think is a great thing. as a matter of fact I know my imagination is a great thing. :)

~Lots of Blogging Love~

School...Is a drag

Don't you wish you had a button that could destroy anything with your command. I do. I wish I had one so I could destroy school. It wouldn't be important if people didn't think we had to be smart. We really don't if you think about it long and hard. We don't know everything and we still can survive with the basics that we have known since we were born. Why o why do we go to school. I'm now starting to question if school is even healthy for us. We tear ourselves apart because we are under pressure. The stress that we get is because we are being put under pressure by people who were once in our position. Teachers act like they don't know how we feel. They actually endure more stress than we do. It isn't fair to any of us. THEN WHY DO WE DO IT! Does anyone know the answer to this question. I think not a single person does. It is also funny how people blame the lack of work in school on TV. Didn't people who went to school create the TV and it shows. Duhh!!! We can't blame the tv or the devil for our own stupidity. Before I get to carried away (lol) I would like to say that this is all true. If you like school I am not judging you. You probably like school because you socialize with all your friends. I think that is the best part about school to be honest. Anyways have a great day!

Lots of Blogging Love♥♥ ;)

A Frame

Everyone has a frame. A frame is like a personal border (no matter how big or how small). You can change your frame any way you want. It might not be easy. The only thing I wonder is how do you find your frame. I'm guessing that isn't easy at all. There is also the possibility that I already know what my frame is, I just don't understand it. If that makes any sense at all. i wish i didn't have to wonder about thses things either. It makes me so anxious to get to the bottom of somethings. I love knowing who, what, where , when, why, and how about almost anything. I don't know why either. I think it is just my thing. I think that is the easiest way to explain it. I guess that is also part of my frame. What is your frame???

Sorry! ☻

I made a mistake any comments u have about the post I just posted or anything else put them here until I make a new post please. Thnx....

Heels!!!

I'm going to go crazy with my craving for heels. Here are pics that will blow your mind(probably not but they are cool). I don't wear heels all the time but when I wear them i love to look SEXY!!!

Lots of Blogging Love♥☻

Yikes!! I had a bad moment

I've had my "woops" moments. Everyone has them. Just the other day Melody and I went to the Statue of liberty. When you exit their are really steep wooden stairs. We were trying to be extra carefull (especially me cuz i wanted to be stupid and wear spicy red heals). All of a sudden Melody misses a step and stumbles. Thank goodness it was the last stair we had to go down. It could have been serious. I have had practice though. My grandmother is all about edicate so she always made me practice walking with flat objects on my head. I would have to walk like I was walking down a catwalk.

anyways we eventually laughed it off. I still was kinda worried about if she was ok or not. A lot of people saw her little incident. It wasn't major , but they thought it was hilarious. It really wasn't but who cares now.

Also:

I was a few hours ago fretting what I was going to do. The people from gap called saying that they wanted to do the shoot on September 25. That was the same day I have to take a special test afterschool so my english lit. teacher could see where i stand in his class. They wanted to set up the shoot for 3:45. I told them it was fine. Once I hung up the phone I was completely pissed. I had no idea what I was going to do. Then at 8:30pm they called saying they had to change the photoshoot to October 16. I was so happy. I didn't have to worry about a thing. *Fewww*. Total relief. Now I am more excited then I am angry I just have to figure out what day october 16 is... But it isn't an important day because my teacher didn't say anything about it.

~Lots of Blogging Love ♥♥♥

express yourself ♥ in new ways

I love to express myself. I have discovered a new talent of mine. I can write. I have even started my own book. It is called "Saving the Moon". I have only typed about sixteen pages but it is really good. It is about a girl who is in love with the moon. She wants to know the secrets behind it. She wants to know why it glows with beauty and many other things. She keeps a diary about all these things that she wants to know, and what she believes in. I want to make it seem like the diary is kinda of like a blog. That way i can add some stuff that i write on my blog to make her life more realistic. I loooove writing so much. I still haven't decided what I want to be. I also love modeling though. I got a job for G.A.P., so expect to c me in ads for gap. My modeling job is probably what's keeping me from deciding. But it is like a passion to me. Everyone has a passion. A passion can be anything pretty much. You can have a passion for someone or something. Me, I have a passion for DeAnte and for modeling. I wish writing fit in there somewhere. And i know I can do it i just don't know how. Lots of blogging love. :)

Confidence is Key

To do almost anything you must have confidence. You don't have to be daring our brave but you have to think about what options you have . You have to know the differrent paths. Confidence can be easy and it can be hard. Putting and orange in your mouth can show you have confidence. It shows you have the confidence to be goofy. Being gooofy can be fun. You don't need a lot of confidence to do it. Confidence is key wether you like it or not. In life confidence screams at us and tells us "use me in your life and i will make everything better". Now it might not make everything better, but it sure can help.

I was watching a show where a girl had to stand up to her parents. They had emotionally abused her. After her brother died they took it out on her. They did little things to brake her. They forced her to move into his bedroom full of mermories that hurt her because she missed him. She finally had then guts and the confidence to talk to someone who then helped her decide what was best for her. I don't mean to be all deep but confidence is "key".

Lots of blogging love!! xoxoxo

The trees and what i believe.lol. its deep

I believe the trees are our ancestors. They guide us without us knowing it.
I believe the wind is the trees breath. They love to speak about many things.
I believe the trees can pass conversations. They talk all across the entire world.
I believe the ground is the trees lover. The ground supports the tree forever.
I believe the sky entertains the trees. The blue is enchanting.
I believe that the clouds secretly envie the trees for their connection with the sky. They try to block it when they can.
I believe that water is the trees best friend . Next in line to the ground.
That is how I feel. How do you feel???

in hiding

Life can suck at various times. But for me that time is right now. I have been avoiding my summer work for a couple of weeks. I lied and said i had already started it. I have been lagging behind. School starts in sept. so i need to step my game up and fast. school isn't fun at all but if i want to suceed i have to do this stuff. We all have to go through it at some point. Anyways summer is coming to an end soon so i won't have to keep this hiding from my summer work.

Lots of blogging love :) ♥

The Diva♥ of the Sunglasses

I love sunglasses. They protect me and give some edge to my look. Avaitors rock. I also have some leopard print glasses. I have a pair from apple bottom and i have a few others. I have worn all of them. I have about seven. I love♥the sun but it hurts my eyes so what am i supposed to do. My favorite pair would have to be my avaitors. They are a blue gray kind of color and they are what i call Stunna Shades. Next in line would have to be my leopard print ones. They don't go with everything i wear but they are a good look for me. What do you love about your glasses??

Secrets to keeping my blog "älive"

See the thing is a lot of people get suprised when i leave a comment on their blog. Sometimes they think that people don't read the things they blog about. but sometimes if u really read the things they have to say u may find it interesting. even if you don't u should still leave a comment just for good spirit. if you have conections with other bloggers then your blog will be much more alive then it ever was. some people don't really need to know this or they just don't care but it is the truth. the top of my blog says it.
lots of blogging love :) ♥

Say goodbye to Florida and Hello to Coach!!!

I got these adorable coach shoes when i was in Florida. They are navy blue wedges. The wedge is actually wooden and the shoe is navy blue. I don't normally like coach because of thoes stupid cs they have on them. The ones i just bought only have cs on the little bow on the top of the shoe. You don't know how much i love them. I am wearing them right now. Lol. So now that i am back home i can wear these whenever i want. Yes♥

Robyn is Rude

My little cousin is like 8 or something and she is like the devil's step daughter or something. Robyn Seniors is her name evil is her game. Before she got to the hotel i was playing with my baby cousin thomas. We were having fun without her. When she came she tried to seperate us in front of everyone. She was being rude and evil. I had about enough. I am much older and she needs to show respect to me. i didn't do anything to her at all. She needs to learn her manners sometime soon. She is gonna have problems in the future if she doesn't stop. Anyways i am typing to you from the Embassy Suites hotel in west palm beach demanding respect from my family.lol.

What FL is like

It is hotttttttttttttt down here. I think i am going to melt. I have been chewing on ice for about a half hour now. I was on facebook earlier now i want to blog. The first part of the reunion has been ok. I haven't had many problems. Some of the boys who i now know are in my family are getting on my last giant nerve. When we ordered our room service they twere hanging out in the hall way making fun of the lady who gave us our breakfast. Man i hate when people are so rude. So i went outside the room and set them straight. They were younger than me so i had the upper hand. Anyways I won't be back for about another week. After we leave West Palm beach we are going to Talahasse, Florida. (My spelling might be a little off.) My vacation is going to be long and fun as you can see. i miss NY though. I miss my city!!!! :( .lol. I'll be fine ;).

Looky at my little pet. lol.

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The beginings of a book

I am writing a story. A very scandalous interesting story. It won't be the best story ever though. It will be about the average life of a teenage girl. I have been through so much. Growing up is the best thing i can do. The story is based on a girl who is learning to grow up. It will be important to many young woman because a lot of us go through a struggle. I don't want to make this sound too deep but it is indeed the truth. I am so excited and ready to finish writing it already. :)

Can't wait

The 4th of july

To all those who are going to parties/bbqs today I would like to say congrats to you. Today is independence day celebrate your independence with someone or something you love. Please don't be lonely.
the way i see it :
RED is for the blood that we shed to gain our independence
I couldn't write in white but you get the idea
Blue is for togetherness, even if you are independent yourself
I hope you have a great independence day all you bloggers. ♥ :)

Hey!!!

I am leaving for Florida pretty soon. I wanted to have a chance to post something before i go. Then again I might take my laptop w/ me just incase. I think I might do that. So my big news is..... drum roll plz. I got my belly button pierced. It is painfull at first but then you get used to it. It was hard for me at first. I got no sleep because I sleep on my stomach. I couldn't sleep on my stomach because it would irritate my ring. It felt akward. In other news in my life....ummm.... DeAnte is an AMAZING kisser. Our first date was great. We had a great time at the club, but our second was even better. We went to Central Park for our second. I know now your thinking what is good about Central Park, but it is what happened that made it romantic. We rented a baot so we could travel through the lake. He was doing all the wrok. What a gentleman he was. While we were on the boat he was talking about people in his family. Then he started to tell me that when his mom first ment me she thought i was pretty and all then he kissed me. For the first time. to be honest i was suprised I even ended up in this position. I used to feel differently about DeAnte. Much different. So what does this mean??? ♥♥♥

Summer Vacation Unleashed

OMG!!!
Tonight I am going to Phillie to see my cousin perform. She is going to get a spot in some dance school at france. She wants some of the family to see her at her last recitle before she starts school in France. We are so proud of her. When I come back I'm going on my first date since Patrick. Or at least my first real date since then. DeAnte and I are going clubbing. His brother is a the head security guard at club 40/40 in NYC. We are going to have so much fun. Now that school is over I can once again let loose. DeAnte is really cool. I'm starting to like him a lot. Patrick already told me that he was jealous. I went off on him. He blew it himself. Pshawww. He isn't in the front of my mind. He isn't even inside my head. Im just chillin this summer. No more bull.♥♥♥♥

Touch my body

Mariah Carey - Touch My Body
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My not so good song that I tried to write

Verse 1:
My heart is failing
Now your love is all I got
Forever or not
I'm talking about right here right now
It's all or nothing
So let's give it our all
Even if we fall down hard to the ground

Pre Chorus:
If we stick together nothing can hurt us
Rain or shine we got to pull through
So

Chorus:
Let the past run fast out of your brain
And let the present slide into your veins
And let the rain wash away all your pain
And let me stay beside you the whole way
Remeber my heart is failing and I need your love
No I don't need gifts even if it is a dove
Boy I need your love there for me
So I won't wipe out

By Elana Lee


Don't copy

I didn't finish the whole thing. It is a process. If u have any ideas they would be so helpful right now.

Through my window.... I wrote it by myself!!!

When I cry at night it isn't because I miss you
It is because I kissed you
In that kiss I took in all your lies
All your thoughts and all your dreams
And by all means your dreams were only fantasy
None of them realistic
It made me want to go balistic
When I think of all the terrible things about you
I remember one thing
The thing I loved about you the most
Not even that delicious toast you make
But I remeber that time you where outside my house
You told me you were thinking about becoming my spouse
And you looked through my window with your beautiful eyes
Then I forgot about all your lies
And the tears I shed are for you
Hoping that someday you will find you
And step in some new shoes

Romeo+Juliet

I love romeo and juliet. What a oddly horrific romance. In class as a gift from our teacher we watched it. We saw the version with hottie Leonardo DeCaprio. The movie is crazy. There is a ton of violence and it is very wierd. It was made in 1996. They use shakespears real lines in the movie. It is a modern movie with old language. It is pretty funny all the same. It is also very romantic. Some parts made me want to cry. Booo hooo. Here is a pic of Romeo first meeting Juliet in her house.

rose

Fashion 4 life

Take from a model who isn't just a model. I am a person all the same. I don't take drugs and I don't go on diets that could damage my body. I love fashion. I ♥ clothes so much. Even though I love it, it isn't my entire life. Fashion is some what important to me though. Fashion is your own style no matter what anyone says.

Slide show 2

My favorite song

Chris Brown - Forever
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Slide Show!

Friends

Me and my cousin Melissa on my b-day. I look so pretty.

This the one in the black skirt is Cierra. The one with the gray leggings on is Kristy. And the one with the yellow skirt is Tachi. We were going to an 80s party.

This is my bestie Melody. She was there for me even when I broke up with Patrick.

Shame on me

I am always known for being the "good girl". Now i have changed. There were already 3 finals this week. One I failed and the rest I passed. I was so angry yesterday I stopped in the park next to the school with my friends. The not so cute in school Wayne was having a water fight. It has been 100 degrees in New York all week. We are having a heat wave and I am hating it. Anyways Wayne brought his friend Lincoln who is crazy. I had Cierra and Melody with me. We were throwing water all over them. We all noticed a change in Wayne. He was different. Spending a whole afternoon with him and my friends was exciting. We were rating each other and looks. Get this Wayne had a six pack. Trust me at first I didn't believe it. I had to see it for myself. He must work out or something cuz it was a total surprise to see him like that. Now i think I like him but for the wrong reasons but I will sleep on it for some time. OOOOOO i am a bad girl...
Unfortunaltly I am sweating like crazy and my AC is on. I is burning in NYC right. I am wasting away here. So i think I am going to check my facebook then just lay down for a while. I don't want to overheat and get a fever.

Exams..Then..Summer

I hate school So much. Finals are next week. I am extremely stressed out. I have payed so much attention this symester so i have to pass at all costs. If i don't my ipod, cellphone, and camera will float out the window and I will be devastated. O and my life just got a whole lot harder. The Vicky's Secret I work at is in the mall that Patrick hangs out in. Today he stopped by and started playing with thongs near the register. His friend Andrew cam up to me and said "Pat would love to see you in this". My boss then saved my life as she walked out of her office. She tilted her glasses then said "Excuse me young man....Unless you are a transvestite I suggest you put those out of my employee's face and walk out of here". When they left I couldn't help but laugh. Then Andrew gave em this look saying we will be back. I get chills just thinking about that. Patrick didn't even say anything to me. He is going out with Aaliyah now. She only likes him because he started skateboarding after we broke up. He picked it up pretty fast and I must admit he is good for a beginner. Now i just have to stop talking about him. School is almost over and all I will have too see are summer boys that live on my block. Summer sounds so distant but is so close. Boys...Tall Boys...Cute Boys...Summer boys that you stop hanging out with when school starts again.
summer is my daredevil mode. I go crazy secretly so that my parents never find out. I have snuck out a few times. Only when my mom is out and when my brother is at my dad's house. Last year was one of the best summers. I talked to some boy i didn't know on the beach. And i was in a cute green bikini and had the bect glasses ever on. Toodles♥

Chris Brown

Chris Brown.He is amazingly sexy and looks great. His girlfriend Rihana. She is a little pretty. They are a couple and have been hiding it for too long. Now they are exposed. Pics of them kissing and hugging and hanging out. Chris's album Exclusive made so much money for its great hits. Good Girl Gone Bad made a lot of money too. Chris's album was better. I have many pics of their love life. Here are a few.

How am I going to spend my day?

No school!!! Today is Brooklyn/Queens day. All the public schools are closed. Even if you don't live in Brooklyn or Queens!!! My brother is mad because he goes to catholic school and they have school today. Now I am home alone with my grandmother and her home care attendant. I am watching "THe Big Ten" on MTV. I only like some of the videos. There are too many commercials as well. Later on I have to get my lazy self up and go t the store to get some more food for my grandma. Today isn't going to be boring because Cierra and I are going to the pool at Riverbank. I promised her I would go because no one else could make it. Everyone had plans except for us 2. Since it is a pool I can't bring the bathing suit I got from Vicky's Secret but I will use the one my dad gave me for swim practice. Even though I hate it.
Speaking of swimming I had to join the school team because of my crazy dad who said it would be a "good experience". Yeah right. Excercise is enough swimming three times every week is over dosing thing just a bit.

It sucks to be me!!!

I was too young to understand at first. Now I get it. My dad is way to protective. He used to be part of my life and now he isn't very much so. I can't say I'm sorry. He is a different person now. He even said so to me. What if he doesn't care? I hate having to ask myself questions like that. The fact that i don't know is sad enough for me. It sucks to be in my own shoes. I feel uncomfortable yet they are just the right size for my frail feet.

Mace in your face is not a good place. But it can happen.

OMG!!! My cousin Paul got pushed and he could have gotten killed. Paul is playfull the fun type if you dare say. Today he was playing with his friend and he pushed Paul way to hard. Then Paul knocked a girl by accident. Then she sprayed mace or pepper spray in his eye. The doctors don't know yet. His dad had to take him to the hospital. I didn't find out until I came back from a school trip. One of the school advisors told me that something happened to him and i called my mom to find out. When i got off the train near my house I saw one of his friends. He told me the whole story of what happened. Now i couldn't walk home with my cousin because of that stupid girl. The worst part is that he didn't know her and he couldn't identify her. It really sucked bad. He is still in ST. Luke's Hospital as we type. LOl. Wait I don't have time to laugh. I think I am going to make a card ofr him or something.

Tomorrow...2morrow

Tomorrow is a sad and scary day. My little bro turns OMG!!!! 10 years old. I remember when i turned my first double digits. I didn't feel any different. He doesn't seem excited either. I am gonna give him birthday punches and a big sloppy kiss on the cheek. Just to make him annoyed like a good sister is supposed to. I just noticed as i am typing this, I didn't get him anything!!!! I hope i will be able to get him something after school tomorow. That way when i get home he will have had a good day. Then my older sister's birthday is in exactly 2 weeks. I am the only one who doesn't have a birthday in June, out of all my mom's kids. I feel like an oddball. A very cute oddball though. :)
I have to think of what i want to get him, and what is cheap. This is going to be difficult. I have a paper due 2morrow that i haven't even started. I bet that i will still get a good grade though. No bragging but i rock when it comes to my grades. Here i am always thinking about what lies ahead. People always tell it is a good thing to think ahead but don't go to far. how am i supposed to do that? I really don't know. Wait.....I can't stop. It is like a disease. I love blogging. Even when i need to do my homework like now!!!!!!! Bye bloggers. ♥♥♥♥♥♥ :)

My new job....What about it?

See my job rocks. Especially because my rack is big for a 15 year old. I get discounts on bras and underwear and all the other good things. I work at Victoria's Secret. It is a new job and I love it. My co-workers are ok they are descent. Some can be rude but others are great. The reason I got the job was because my mom knows my boss. My boss' name is Tila Jones. She was happy to know that i was looking for a job because she just fired someone for being irresponsible. I don't know the whole story though. My mom told her i am responsible and that i would be great for the job. That is how great my mommy is. Yeah. I still call her mommy. I'm not too attached though. In e few years I will be out of her house anyway.

Now I need some honest opinions. Do you think it would rock if i got a tatoo on my back. It won't be too big. I want it to be a star. That way when I am on the track people can stare at my back instead of my muscle legs.Lmao. That isn't the only reason. It will look cute in the summer when i wear my bathing suit. I just hope my mom doesn't throw a hissy fit. That is what happened the last time when I got my belly buton done. Its like I can wear stuff on my belly button that I would wear on my ears. *Giggles*. 

Moving up in the world

The Govenor asked me to speak at a press conference. The conference will be about the issues accuring in NYC. I talked to him yesterday night with my mom. Get this though...He called me!!! I was so suprised and scared and excited all at the same time. now my mom is so proud. We haven't told my dad yet. Govenor Patterson asked me to write a speech on my point of view on these issues. I sound like a nerd, but i am a happy nerd then. The conference is in 2 weeks. I have to travel all the way to albany to the govenors mansion. He is paying for everything I need. Yipe. I am so flippin excited. I am going to be on TV again! THe funny part is I already know what I am going to wear. I have to look amazing. I already made a hair appointment. And I told my boss I would be gone for three days. He let me slide. BTW I got a new job at Victoria secret. Even more excitement. The thing is my family is worried about my hand. Since I got surgery they want me to settle down. They want me to be comfortable and to relax. Yeah right. Like that's ever going to happen. I am up and about. I am soooo making mine in this world.

I think I am hungry so i am going to grab a bagel. See you bloggers l8ter. ☺☻♥ :)

Neighborhood madness

hmmmm. I don't know why but i am making a collage. Life is short to honest. All I have time to do is laugh while watching "THat 70's Show". And yes it is hilarious to me. The collage is about women and men. How girls are b-e-a-utiful and how guys are flat out sexy. collages help me express my self in ways unimaginable. But i am excited to do it.

On friday i saw someone get shot.Believe me it was scary. I boy got shot in his leg right in front of the school. There was blood everywhere. It made me want to cry. I don't know if he is dead or alive. Because of the shootings going on in the neighborhood our school is being harassed by the stupid police. They check your bag. They make sure nothing bad is inside it. They take away cellphones and ipods. Today when i went through the metal detectors i started to beep. THey took the metal detector wand and checked me. My bra has a metal clasp. The lady cop made me open my shirt so she could see it. I was so embarassed and upset. I wanted to cry. Do they even have a right to do that???????? What can i do?There have been so my crime sprees lately . During memorial day 10 people were shot. Crazy right?!

Whoa!!!! Didn't see that coming...

Now i must confess. My headline is "the Truth" so here the truth is. I dumped Pat. One of the reasons was because I like Tyler. Another reason is because he tried so hard to understand me but he couldn't. It broke my heart. I didn't give him a movie break-up i gave him the real stuff. Hardcore. It still hurts that I'm not with him but I have to get over it very soon.
2 days after we broke up I had t get surgery. Well it sounded more like disection. THey did something to a bone in my hand so it wouldn't snap off. I had to stay in the hospital for a week. I had to stay out of school for a long time too. I couldn't move my hand at all. So i got the connector taken out and my hand is fine. Now i can do the normal things i usually do.I missed you guys o so much.

Been gone but back

Did you miss me bloggers? Huh? Did you miss me? I know I have been gone for a while but i am back and blogger than ever. as an update i would like to publicly announce that Pat and I are officially over!!! See you guys when I write again. LOve you all babes!

O Sarah's Bookz..How I love thy.

I think i am going to marry Sarah Dessen's bookz. Don't worry I have a feeling Pat♥ won't be jealous. I am going to give you the name of all her books in the order I like them. Juat Listen, This Lullaby, The truth About forever, That Summer, Someone Like You, Dreamland, Lock and Key, Keeping Moon, How to Deal. Juat Listen is my favorite, but I like the rest of them equally. She is such a great writer. I can't stop reading her books. It is like a good disease. But she isn't the only good writer. There are many others including me. But that is only a few peoples opinions. So i decided to introduce you to some of my writing. I am in the makings of writing a story called "The Land Of The Dead". I will post some of the story to my blog so you can read it. The only thing delaying me from putting everthing into my writing is my modeling job. My career could go in so many good directions! I should stop thinking about the past and work on the future. O and btw another example of a good author/writer is Carole Wilkinson. So many people who make money off of great bookz.☺☺☺☺☺☺

Take me there

Take me there. I wanna go there. Take me there. You know where. Just take me to that great place with wonders and everything.

I remember that song from the Rugrats. It is by Blackstreet and Mya. It is called take me there. It is kinda funny if you used to watch the rugrats. I used to. Anyways I just finished consuming my Dominos pizza. Ya I had about three slices. To be honest the spotlight of my day was pretty wierd. I spent my time afterschool helping my teachers with some of my friends. Then we spent time with our Lacross coach. Her office was fun to play in. Cierra, Nahtique, and I hung out in there for a while too. The thing I like about her is that she speaks "The Truth". That makes her perfect for my blog. I mean she fits the title perfectly. She even took my phone once. i still like her though. Trust me it is hard for me too do that because I love my phone and she took it from me.
Because Pat♥ is coming over soon I have to get ready. Or do i. I am sure he will love to see me in my pizza stained wifebeater and torn jeans. I think I should freshen up. Lmao!! Duhhh I should. One:Love:Peace Bloggers ☺

You want more????

I got a dream catcher today. I am going to hang it on the wall above my bed and let it work its magic. It is going to take away the bad dreams and keep the good. I also got my face painted. It was a green and purple heart with an arrow going through it on my face. I still have it on. I also brought this bracelet that is just so fab. It ids black, red, and white to top it off.Yes I know you are waiting for the good part about the gossip. Tyler said that I was the cutest girl in our class. I think he is cute but I don't like him. Another thing is he is one of Cierra's leftovers. I don't want to have the same guy. Ewwwwwwwwww.



And now for more stuff : Tachi got into another fight. My friend Cierra took her stuffed frog that Tachi just brought. Tachi got mad and pushed her into the wall knocking her head against it. Then Cierra knocked her on the wall and started throwing punches until Tachi cried. Ya and Cierra has that muscle. They say that she is Braulic. Braulic means you are really strong and muscular. I bet you didn't see that story coming. The best part is they didn't get caught by a teacher. They were in a quiet hallway. Wow today is just full of surprises. Tachi got into fight #2. My social/school life is absolutely crazy and hecktic. But I still love it. I just wonder if they are ever going to be friends again. Ooooooooooooooooo I can't wait to hear more tomorrow but i will update you guys on any news I get tonight. ♥

Bad girlz

Remember Tachi. Ya well today we fought. We were in the park outsidde the school and everyone wanted us to do it. I am short for my age and she is normal height. Good things come in small packages. so i finally pushed her. Then she took me by the arms and spun me. I grabbed her shirt tight and pulled it. Then our gym teacher saw us from the car ramp and we ran. That was only round one. We didn't get enough time. Then we moved to the other side of the park. In the playground. She pushed me and i grabbed her by the neck and held on tight. By now I am used to these stuck up girls getting what they want. This girl doesn't play that!! Then i dug my long nails into her skin. Making red marks. She hit my leg because her head was near my thigh the way I was holding her. Then i hit her in the eye with my hand. Then she let go of me and we backed away. Another teacher who we weren't familiar with told us to leave. We crossed the street and went to the store. I was satified but she wasn't. She wanted to fight again. so after I got my food we headed back to the park. We dropped our stuff and went at it again. This time it was more serious. She punched me in the nose the i punched her jaw. Her face looked surprised so then we threw punches everywhere. Then it got crazy and I knew we would get busted. And we almost did. A security guard saw us and told us to break it up. I don't even remember who got the last hit. all I could think was that I hated her. When we got back inside the school for afterschool we began to talk. We're not best friends but were not mortal enemies. I'm not sure if i still hate her. People are so wierd. It is like humans are just the most peculiar creatures ever. When Patrick♥ called me a few minutes ago he was worried. Then he stopped because he remembered what things I had done to this other girl last year. Don't worry it was just self defense. But today is whatever. And it will probably stay that way for another month. Gossip stays with you for a while. One:Love:Peace bloggers! :)

Puerto Rico!

I was gone all weekend because of a great surprise. My mom didn't get me a birthday present (or at least that is what i thought). On friday she started moving some of my clothes into a suit case. I asked her where I was going and she said, "Surprise! You and I are going to Puerto Rico".I was so happy. A few days away from New York. I have to admit it was fun. We stayed at a hotel a beach. We went near the water a lot. We got plenty of souveniers (excuse the spellong i am still excited)and little things from puerto rico. Patrick♥ and I spent about 3 hours talking about my trip. He is half Puertorican so he has some family there. I had a fun time and i missed all of you bloggers!!! :) ♥

Happy B-Day to me

Today is a very special day. I turn 15 today. I am so happy. I am typing this fast because I have to go to the wax museum soon. I am taking 5 of my closest friends. I have 2 digital cameras so i don't fill up one.LMAo.. We are going to take so many pics there. I'll even take one with Bush and stick up my middle finger behind his big ears. I hate him so much... Wish me luck :)

Worms!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate worms. Who cares if hate is a strong word.
We had to go to a garden today as a school trip. It wasn't fun at all. A few kids in my class decided to dig worms and take them with us. When we got back in class Parish and Armani started laughing at me. At first I didn't get it so I ignored them. But then Tachi touched my hoodie and smiled at me. Then she rubbed her hands on the wall in disgust. I asked her what happened but she said "nothing". Then Kymani screamed and said "There a worm in your hood!!!!". I screamed at the top of my lungs. Then I ran to my science teacher knowing that she handles with living things. She took it out of my hood then I calmed down. I had no idea who did it. After a while I got over though. It took a long time but i got over. But the person who I was really mad at was Tachi. She is supposed to be my friend, but she didn't tell me there was a freakin worm in my hood. Now i'm serious. I have lost every single bit of trust for her. She is a liar for the millionth time. I am so stupid to have trusted her. If it were her in that position I would have told her. Now I refuse to talk to her. she isn't worth the words. I am not giving her another chance. it is just too much drama for one girl. Too much!!!

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There are no words to describe how it felt. I saw Patrick at the manhattan mall today. It was a suprise. I was alone because Sierra totally ditched me because she had to get something at staples. I saw him in a toy store. At first i laughed becuase I didn't think it was him. I thought my smoothie was going to my freakin head. But it was him. In th flesh. He was looking at a transformer toy.I walked in with my jaw dropping to my chest. It was too funny. I ran up to him and hugged him. He smiled and hugged me back. One thing that is so cool about patrick is that his eyes change colors. They can be hazel and they can be a brownish color. Considering the fact we were the oldest people there(excluding the parents of the kids)I decided we should leave. I dragged him out of the store and we walked around the mall holding hands. When we sat down on a bench i let out a sigh to show that i was done walking. I forget exactly how it happened but i started to stare at how pretty his eyes were. THen somehow he kissed me. I will spare you the details, but it was nice....I'm not going to say i am in love. I just really like him. A blogger who i won't shout out said that he thinks it is a good idea to be open around people. Although it took us a while Patrick and I finally became open. And it isn't like he is my first kiss. But he is the best kisser I ever dated. O and there is this blogger who is really cool. I can't tell you her blogger name but her real name is Ally. And I want her to be happy. There is someone she really likes. someone she cares about. We should all be happy.

you don't even want to know. No wait... yes you do thats why you are reading my blog....duhhh

On May 2nd we are having our last social of the year. Last time went very well. To bad DEvin is major history. He is out the door and in the river. so i spent today trying to figure out what i expected myself to wear. I plan early for some reason. I have to be on top of my game. Then i thought to myself why go through the trouble of trying to impress retards that don't care about me. The only people i should impress are my friends. Then again my friends don't think i need to impress them. Still i always have to make a good apperence. It is just my odd nature. The best part is patrick will be there. He didn't go to the last social. He was at some art show. But he promised me he would go. I wonder what odd things are going to happen this time. Maybe it will be fun and everyone will have a good time. That is what I am hoping for.

I have become a read-a-holic. I can't stop myslef from picking out a good book. Right now i am reading "Book of a Thousand Days". It is great I started reading it yesterday. I am on page 145. so far it has been great. The best part is the next go see i am going to has to do with books. It is for a book cover for some author. I hope i get it because i want to be able to let other people see me world wide and not just in America.*squeals of excitement*

Baby on its way

Now because of my ela teacher I am starting to get into poetry. My brother came to me for advice on poem in your pocket day. He was trying to get some ideas from my intense csi poem. Then I thought to myself. A lot of people do enjoy poetry. Even my brother. To me that is scary.

Aside from that I found out great news. My teacher Jill is having a baby. She lets us call her by her first name. I knew she seemed to be getting a little fatter. Then i thought she might be pregnant. Then i thought to myself maybe I am just seeing things. It is kind of exciting because the father of the baby is.....my climbing instuctor from teen camp. His name is "Sparks". Too bad no one knows his real name. Jill promises that once she has the baby she will bring him to school when she is ready. Oh ya it is a girl. She is due in August I believe. She also promised that she would tell us Sparks real name once she brought the baby in. Although Sparks is to old for me I must admit he is good looking. But that is all i can say.

One more thing before I end this post. I need to know if anyone thinks it is a good idea to let Patricik (the boy i like) see my blog.Leave me a comment letting me know. The only reason why i am having second thoughts is because he might feel wierd if he sees that comment about the writing his name in my heart. Let me know though. Toodles :)

This is something I wrote when i was watching CSI Las Vegas

Tears stream down her cheeks as she squirms for air.
The mace that covered her face is still there.
You watch her dies because of your sick little lies.
She was tangled in your affectionate ways.
You numbered her days.
And now she moves lifeless and slow.
You stand above her cold.
She takes her last breathe and it's over.....

Bloggers Block

I had bloggers block. I just didn't know what to say for a few days.All I could talk about was Earth day and Tachi. Since thursday all that has been on my mind is school, Patrick and Florida. Speaking of Patrick we finally "hooked up" as some of you call it. We were walking home with my friend Melody. She urged me to tell him while she was there. She was so eager. So I stopped walking and told him how I felt. His mouth dropped when i first told him. I thought I blew it so i tried to escape and run home. Then he grabbed my wrist and spun me around. He said i didn't have to be embarassed. How could I not? Mean while Melody was laughing so hard watching us. He said that he liked me too. He thought i was cute and all , but he liked my personality more. I think that is a good thing. It is positive feedback. So all three of us walked home together. Patrick and I linked arms and Melody started to scream becuase she thought it was cute..*giggles*. Oh Patrick. Another good thing that happened this weekend was I found out that we are having a family reunion for my dad's side of the family in Florida. My dad might not go but my mom is. She is close to my dad's family too. The reunion is in July. Eager me already brought a dress for this event. I got is from Macys.So i am a bit excited to see the rest of my dad's family. My mind was also on school because i have a lot of homework i have to catch up on. Actually I am supposed to be doing it now but i wanted to type.

Tiresome

I am not trying to be baby or an annoying person I just wish there was peace. I am tired of having to show people that just because I might come off as an innocent person doesn't mean that if you mess with me I won't fight back. If I have to fight you off by all means necessary I will. To be in school you have to survive. And i am willing to do that. I am so tired of it. Has anyone ever heard of harmony? We need peace in this world!!!!

For Patrick

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The mistake

Why would she brake a promise to me and Kymani?Why would she lie to me? Why would she tell Cierra? Why did she lie to me again?
Remember how I made that post about my friends Cierra and Tyler. That they were dating and stuff like that. Well guess what. They are going to break up tomorrow because of Tachi. Kymani told Tachi and I to tell no one that Tony told her Tyler doesn't really like Cierra. I didn't tell anyone, But Tachi did.This morning in english class Tachi told Cierra that Tyler didn't like her. I can't believe she broke her promise. The thing Tachi forgot was that Kymani wasn't sure if it was true. While we were in gym Cierra told us that Tachi told her. We were so mad. Then we explained to her the situation. She was mad at Tachi too. So in Science class we tony asked us why Kymani and I told Cierra that he said that. We explained to him that Tachi said that. Then he was mad at her too. When we all asked Tachi she lied and said she didn't. Then she got caught becuase Cierra said that she did. Then Tachi was mad because we knew she was lying and stabbing us in the back. When the bell rang after last period I asked her again. Then she lied again and said no. So i stopped talking to her knowing she was lying. The secone time she had lied to me. She told me once she would never lie to me. Now i don't believe her. When she realized I wasn't talking to her she asked someone why I wasn't. Then she asked me was it becuase she lied. then I said no, it was because she is a liar. Thne I walked to the caferteria away from her.
Now I know I can't trust her. Now I am going to tell the people who she talks about behind their backs, what she says. It is time to show her how I feel.

Single

There is this boy....No actuallly there isn't. None of the boys in my grade seem to intrest me anymore. most of them are ugly. But there is Patrick. He is of the record cute. He is smart and polite. I can get into intense conversations with at times, but then there are times where we act like we don't know each other. It is frustrating because I know I like him but I don't want to. My friends all say he isn't my type. Do I even have a type?!Boys will be boys but he is different. He makes me feel bubbly. He give me this physical comfort that is really nice. Why do I like him? I just don't know why...I even had a dream that he and I were in the library kissing. *giggles*. We at the 4 shelf where my sister had her first kiss. But I had mine in the school park 3 years ago. It was so romantic. He was wearing a green shirt. My favorite color. It just makes me so happy. But then I worry about how people will feel if we started going out. So many girls like him, and I would create enemies. That is the last thing I want. I don't know what to do. if I tell him I like him there is no going back. If he says he doesn't like me what will I do. Sometimes rejection is hard. Then there is the question about if he says yes. I might scream in my head "yes". But what will I say to him. I am not so courageous. I think about him when I don't want to and when I do. On Friday I was daydreaming about my dream. I was missing part of my social studies lesson. Then out of the blue my teacher asked me a question about India. BUSTED. Unfotunately we were talking about Africa so when I answered ofcourse I was wrong. I was so embarassed. Even Patrick laughed at how stupid I felt.
Right now I want a Burrito so I am going to get something delivered. Toodels :)

Too Bad

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