Worms!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate worms. Who cares if hate is a strong word.
We had to go to a garden today as a school trip. It wasn't fun at all. A few kids in my class decided to dig worms and take them with us. When we got back in class Parish and Armani started laughing at me. At first I didn't get it so I ignored them. But then Tachi touched my hoodie and smiled at me. Then she rubbed her hands on the wall in disgust. I asked her what happened but she said "nothing". Then Kymani screamed and said "There a worm in your hood!!!!". I screamed at the top of my lungs. Then I ran to my science teacher knowing that she handles with living things. She took it out of my hood then I calmed down. I had no idea who did it. After a while I got over though. It took a long time but i got over. But the person who I was really mad at was Tachi. She is supposed to be my friend, but she didn't tell me there was a freakin worm in my hood. Now i'm serious. I have lost every single bit of trust for her. She is a liar for the millionth time. I am so stupid to have trusted her. If it were her in that position I would have told her. Now I refuse to talk to her. she isn't worth the words. I am not giving her another chance. it is just too much drama for one girl. Too much!!!

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There are no words to describe how it felt. I saw Patrick at the manhattan mall today. It was a suprise. I was alone because Sierra totally ditched me because she had to get something at staples. I saw him in a toy store. At first i laughed becuase I didn't think it was him. I thought my smoothie was going to my freakin head. But it was him. In th flesh. He was looking at a transformer toy.I walked in with my jaw dropping to my chest. It was too funny. I ran up to him and hugged him. He smiled and hugged me back. One thing that is so cool about patrick is that his eyes change colors. They can be hazel and they can be a brownish color. Considering the fact we were the oldest people there(excluding the parents of the kids)I decided we should leave. I dragged him out of the store and we walked around the mall holding hands. When we sat down on a bench i let out a sigh to show that i was done walking. I forget exactly how it happened but i started to stare at how pretty his eyes were. THen somehow he kissed me. I will spare you the details, but it was nice....I'm not going to say i am in love. I just really like him. A blogger who i won't shout out said that he thinks it is a good idea to be open around people. Although it took us a while Patrick and I finally became open. And it isn't like he is my first kiss. But he is the best kisser I ever dated. O and there is this blogger who is really cool. I can't tell you her blogger name but her real name is Ally. And I want her to be happy. There is someone she really likes. someone she cares about. We should all be happy.

you don't even want to know. No wait... yes you do thats why you are reading my blog....duhhh

On May 2nd we are having our last social of the year. Last time went very well. To bad DEvin is major history. He is out the door and in the river. so i spent today trying to figure out what i expected myself to wear. I plan early for some reason. I have to be on top of my game. Then i thought to myself why go through the trouble of trying to impress retards that don't care about me. The only people i should impress are my friends. Then again my friends don't think i need to impress them. Still i always have to make a good apperence. It is just my odd nature. The best part is patrick will be there. He didn't go to the last social. He was at some art show. But he promised me he would go. I wonder what odd things are going to happen this time. Maybe it will be fun and everyone will have a good time. That is what I am hoping for.

I have become a read-a-holic. I can't stop myslef from picking out a good book. Right now i am reading "Book of a Thousand Days". It is great I started reading it yesterday. I am on page 145. so far it has been great. The best part is the next go see i am going to has to do with books. It is for a book cover for some author. I hope i get it because i want to be able to let other people see me world wide and not just in America.*squeals of excitement*

Baby on its way

Now because of my ela teacher I am starting to get into poetry. My brother came to me for advice on poem in your pocket day. He was trying to get some ideas from my intense csi poem. Then I thought to myself. A lot of people do enjoy poetry. Even my brother. To me that is scary.

Aside from that I found out great news. My teacher Jill is having a baby. She lets us call her by her first name. I knew she seemed to be getting a little fatter. Then i thought she might be pregnant. Then i thought to myself maybe I am just seeing things. It is kind of exciting because the father of the baby is.....my climbing instuctor from teen camp. His name is "Sparks". Too bad no one knows his real name. Jill promises that once she has the baby she will bring him to school when she is ready. Oh ya it is a girl. She is due in August I believe. She also promised that she would tell us Sparks real name once she brought the baby in. Although Sparks is to old for me I must admit he is good looking. But that is all i can say.

One more thing before I end this post. I need to know if anyone thinks it is a good idea to let Patricik (the boy i like) see my blog.Leave me a comment letting me know. The only reason why i am having second thoughts is because he might feel wierd if he sees that comment about the writing his name in my heart. Let me know though. Toodles :)

This is something I wrote when i was watching CSI Las Vegas

Tears stream down her cheeks as she squirms for air.
The mace that covered her face is still there.
You watch her dies because of your sick little lies.
She was tangled in your affectionate ways.
You numbered her days.
And now she moves lifeless and slow.
You stand above her cold.
She takes her last breathe and it's over.....

Bloggers Block

I had bloggers block. I just didn't know what to say for a few days.All I could talk about was Earth day and Tachi. Since thursday all that has been on my mind is school, Patrick and Florida. Speaking of Patrick we finally "hooked up" as some of you call it. We were walking home with my friend Melody. She urged me to tell him while she was there. She was so eager. So I stopped walking and told him how I felt. His mouth dropped when i first told him. I thought I blew it so i tried to escape and run home. Then he grabbed my wrist and spun me around. He said i didn't have to be embarassed. How could I not? Mean while Melody was laughing so hard watching us. He said that he liked me too. He thought i was cute and all , but he liked my personality more. I think that is a good thing. It is positive feedback. So all three of us walked home together. Patrick and I linked arms and Melody started to scream becuase she thought it was cute..*giggles*. Oh Patrick. Another good thing that happened this weekend was I found out that we are having a family reunion for my dad's side of the family in Florida. My dad might not go but my mom is. She is close to my dad's family too. The reunion is in July. Eager me already brought a dress for this event. I got is from Macys.So i am a bit excited to see the rest of my dad's family. My mind was also on school because i have a lot of homework i have to catch up on. Actually I am supposed to be doing it now but i wanted to type.

Tiresome

I am not trying to be baby or an annoying person I just wish there was peace. I am tired of having to show people that just because I might come off as an innocent person doesn't mean that if you mess with me I won't fight back. If I have to fight you off by all means necessary I will. To be in school you have to survive. And i am willing to do that. I am so tired of it. Has anyone ever heard of harmony? We need peace in this world!!!!

For Patrick

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The mistake

Why would she brake a promise to me and Kymani?Why would she lie to me? Why would she tell Cierra? Why did she lie to me again?
Remember how I made that post about my friends Cierra and Tyler. That they were dating and stuff like that. Well guess what. They are going to break up tomorrow because of Tachi. Kymani told Tachi and I to tell no one that Tony told her Tyler doesn't really like Cierra. I didn't tell anyone, But Tachi did.This morning in english class Tachi told Cierra that Tyler didn't like her. I can't believe she broke her promise. The thing Tachi forgot was that Kymani wasn't sure if it was true. While we were in gym Cierra told us that Tachi told her. We were so mad. Then we explained to her the situation. She was mad at Tachi too. So in Science class we tony asked us why Kymani and I told Cierra that he said that. We explained to him that Tachi said that. Then he was mad at her too. When we all asked Tachi she lied and said she didn't. Then she got caught becuase Cierra said that she did. Then Tachi was mad because we knew she was lying and stabbing us in the back. When the bell rang after last period I asked her again. Then she lied again and said no. So i stopped talking to her knowing she was lying. The secone time she had lied to me. She told me once she would never lie to me. Now i don't believe her. When she realized I wasn't talking to her she asked someone why I wasn't. Then she asked me was it becuase she lied. then I said no, it was because she is a liar. Thne I walked to the caferteria away from her.
Now I know I can't trust her. Now I am going to tell the people who she talks about behind their backs, what she says. It is time to show her how I feel.

Single

There is this boy....No actuallly there isn't. None of the boys in my grade seem to intrest me anymore. most of them are ugly. But there is Patrick. He is of the record cute. He is smart and polite. I can get into intense conversations with at times, but then there are times where we act like we don't know each other. It is frustrating because I know I like him but I don't want to. My friends all say he isn't my type. Do I even have a type?!Boys will be boys but he is different. He makes me feel bubbly. He give me this physical comfort that is really nice. Why do I like him? I just don't know why...I even had a dream that he and I were in the library kissing. *giggles*. We at the 4 shelf where my sister had her first kiss. But I had mine in the school park 3 years ago. It was so romantic. He was wearing a green shirt. My favorite color. It just makes me so happy. But then I worry about how people will feel if we started going out. So many girls like him, and I would create enemies. That is the last thing I want. I don't know what to do. if I tell him I like him there is no going back. If he says he doesn't like me what will I do. Sometimes rejection is hard. Then there is the question about if he says yes. I might scream in my head "yes". But what will I say to him. I am not so courageous. I think about him when I don't want to and when I do. On Friday I was daydreaming about my dream. I was missing part of my social studies lesson. Then out of the blue my teacher asked me a question about India. BUSTED. Unfotunately we were talking about Africa so when I answered ofcourse I was wrong. I was so embarassed. Even Patrick laughed at how stupid I felt.
Right now I want a Burrito so I am going to get something delivered. Toodels :)

Too Bad

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My Friends

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It's so true

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R.I.P.

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Smooches

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More Shopping.!!!! When will it end.Hopefully before my feet fall off.

Today was a shop day again. I have to get ready for summer....Ofcourse my school didn't have a Spring break yet. For some reason we are having it the week after next week. I needed some more cute clothes to wear so we went shopping. It wasn't fun because something happened to my foot. It really hurt. When I got home it felt much better. All that walking in the mall. My poor foot was screaming for help.Lol. Anyways I am about to go out and get a manicure because I slit a qutical. The place I got to has a doctor who not only takes care of your hand, but paints your nails too. I think it is pretty cool. Toodles :) (:

The shoot

THe old navy clothes were fabulous. The photo shoot took about 2 hours. Not to long not to short. I get paid $100 for every half hours. So basically I just made $400. It was so much fun. I got to try on this red dress that was like right above my knees. I tried on a pair of skinny jeans with these beige platform shoes. So cute!!!!!!I tried on a blue tank-top that was so comfortable. I tried on a mini skirt and some light blue flip flops. There were many other things a tried on but that is all I can name right now. The photographer was so nice. She made me feel comfortable.Even if she didn't I would still have to take nice pics.Lmao. The best part was I got to keep some of the things I tried on. Ofcourse I kept those cute skinny jeans.

Ancient Smackdown&Water

8th period was too funny. My teacher was in a bad mood. Our class just acted out as usual. Wayne decided to make fun of Kymani. We were studying Ancient Greece. The Spartans were soliders. So my silly head self told them to battle it out like Spartans. They could play fight like the people in the movie 300. So Wayne slapped Kymani's arm. I laughed so hard I thought I was going to bust a gut. Then Kymani got serious. She took Wayne by the neck.Then he started to turn read. So I had to save the day and pry her hand off his neck. I thought she might kill him. It scared me. Maybe I should have kept my mouth shut. The funny part to this story is that the teacher never saw all three of us. Thank goodness Wayne and Kymani are still friends. If the fight continue she would have beaten the mess out of him afterschool. Kymani is tall and big. Wayne is scrany. Lmao

Marine Biology is my afterschool program I got into for being smart. Today we had to feed our plants that were inside the water tank. We had to fill it up withn what we call nutrient solution. When I tried to carry the bucket towards the tank, I noticed it was too much for me to hold. The tank wasn't that far so I decided to continue walking with the bucket. Then I dropped the bucket. Splaaaaaashhhhh. The water splashed all over me and the desk that were near me. No one laughed but I could sense that they were doing in their heads. Kymani had to help me clean myself off. Thank god I was wearing my apron and goggles. The nutrient solution isn't supposed to touch you.

Cece and T-boogie

I was tired of the old blogger layout so I made a new one. Don't you love it? Well maybe you don't, but I do. Green is my fave color though. Anyways my day was same old same old. I worked a few things out with my friend. You know normal issues.But the best part of today was the "love" connection between two of my friends. I have 2 friends with the same name. Sierra and Cierra. Today Cierra started going out with Tyler. Tyler is one of my boy buddies I hang out with from time to time. Cierra is a good friend of mine. Manner of fact great friend of mine. Tyler, I must admit is kinda cute. In 8th period they finally announced that they liked each other. It was so cute. 2 short people going out. Lmao. I am just kidding. Tony my other guy friend is so jealous right now.He really likes Cierra. He doesn't even want to see her. Wo0o0o0o0o0W. But Cierra and Tyler are a cute couple. But the relationship will be over soon. I will give it about 2 weeks. Cierra thinks that her and Tyler might cause friction between a lot of people.

A flaming heart

Friends are important to me. I give them my trust. But I hate it when they take advantage of the trust that you give them. Friends are supposed to have your back. They are supposed to be there through thick and thin. They're aren't supposed to laugh at you when someone talks about you. When that happens to my friends I don't laugh at them. I just take their minds off of the bad topic. I will only make fun of them when they did something that hurt me. And if you say sorry while laughing it won't make me feel better. It will make me feel like you don't care. It will make me think you want to hurt me. There is so much more I wish to say, but I know I can't. Tomorrow will be another day. I will act like nothing happened. My flaming heart will continue to burn. You won't stop it. No one will. Consealed within in my body my flaming heart shall stay.

Forever to burn brightly.

So me!!

Yesterday was so hectic but today is a new day. The sun is shining. No wait it is actually about to rain. There goes the idea of sun. I finally got the sneakers i kept stalking at foot locker. They were on sale and I thought i should get them before someone else did. Is that greedy? I have way to many all stars so i got some lavender nikes. Spice up my wardrobe! I also did a lot of shopping. Just a little spring shop to see what was in for the summer. Omg! the clothes were goregeous. Especially the ones from forever21. I know they rock just like me. Naaaw. I am just kidding. Everyone rocks. Anyways. The best thing i bought all day were my new jeans. They have this green and pink cobra on them. They kick butt. They are on fire. they look so good. My next photo thing is on wednesday. So i have to make good first impressions with my clothes. Although they will just make me try other things on. it is for some sock company.*giggles*. So basically they will be focusing on my feet instead of my face. Wierd huh? Well i hope you and everyone else has a good day. I don't think mine is going to get better than those cobra jeans. I think I might watch a disney movie to cheer me up. Maybe Beauty and the bEast! wait that is a great idea. I know almost all the words to it. I have been watching it ever since i was 2. It is a classic. disney movies rock out loud!!!! Sorry i am in a rock mood. And a hip-hop mood. No wait i am in every type of music mood. I NEED MY IPOD NOW!!! BYE PEOPLE

Anger!!!!

The blood rises high in your system. And you want to take someone off the planet and into a black hole. I felt like doing that to DEVIN....My friend took my shoe off my foot and ran with it. I didn't catch up to her in time to see Devin take it and throw it in the trash. When she told me I wanted to burst. I thought Devin didn't love his life. I thought he wanted me to slay him. Never mess with a girls converse. She will have your head. When I got it back from my friend I knew what to do. I went straight to the cafeteria where Devin's jacket was. I spit on it then stomped all over it. Satisfied I went home angry. When I got home I cleaned off my shoe. I thought Devin was discombobulated. At around 6:00 i got a call from Tachi. She tells me she was joking. I was so confused I got dizzy. Then I knew what I had to do. I had to apologize to Devin. I definitely didn't want to do it but even my sister thought it was a good idea. So I texted him and apologized. A call would be to messy for the whole he has dug for himself. He decided to make it this way. When he texted me back he knew that I spit on it. I could tell he was mad. I would be too if I were in his position. I felt terrible. I had done something stupid. Humans always do. We are wierd like that. I am sorry to him though.

Seriously!!

The real me is the one in this post. Like I said I am more of a converse girl!!!
I know it is a bad yet funny picture. I don't remember what i was doing but i was with my friend. Yes i am mixed. I just don't look like it. The other pic was a fake.I am not supposed to put my model pics on the net. My computer will block them cuz of my mom, a.k.a. the momster.

Sierra

My best friend. I have known her since I was four. We don't see each other often though. We go to different schools. I know it is just terrible. We are BFFs. Always and forever. We find the best of ourselves in each other. Ofcourse we fight. Best friends have to fight. I mean at least I think so. But we always make up the next day. Our friendship is o so lovely. Some of the poems I wrote were for her. While my dad is gone we are going to one of Chris Brown's concerts. We got front row seats. My sister and her cousin are coming with us. We act bad on our own. Trust me. I am so excited to see her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

At schoool

My english teacher is letting us use the laptops.We have a half day today at skewl.So hello fellow bloggers.

Friend Poems

A friend is someone we turn to

when our spirits need a lift.

A friend is someone we treasure

for our friendship is a gift.

A friend is someone who fills our lives

with beauty, joy, and grace.

And makes the whole world we live in

a better and happier place.

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I believe in angels,

The kind that heaven sends,

I am surrounded by angels,

But I call them friends.

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Standing by,

All the way.

Here to help you through your day.

Holding you up,

When you are weak,

Helping you find what it is you seek.

Catching your tears,

When you cry.

Pulling you through when the tide is high.

Just being there,

Through thick and thin,

All just to say,

you are my friend.

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There is a miracle called Friendship

that dwells within the heart

and you don't know how it happens

or when it even starts.

But the happiness it brings you

always gives a special lift

and you realize that Friendship

is God's most precious gift.

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Friends will come and friends will go,

The seasons change and it will show,

I will age and so will you,

But our friendship stays,

strong and true.

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There's nothing as nice as someone who shares,

your laughter, your secrets, your wishes and cares,

someone who's there through your good times and tears,

who stays by your side as your friend through the years.

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When you ask God for a gift,

Be thankful if he sends,

Not diamonds, pearls, or riches,

but the love of real true friends.

Uh-oh

Poor Tachi was in the hospital agian today. I am worried. She hasn't even responded to her txt messages. If something goes wrong I will be one friend less. I prayed that she would be ok. I hope she is. I hope she gets well super fast. I miss her at school. I have other friends but, they miss her too. We are all worried about Tachi. Even the teachers. My science teacher was extremely worried today. She jumped out of her seat in awe.

???

Does it matter if I am black/white.I am just mixed. Do you think anything else of me now. I didn't forget to mention it I just don't think people will care. Oh and that pic of me when I was six is going off my page by Friday. I just don't like it.

the bug

I have an extreme headache. I don't know what is wrong. I am suprised I can even type. Anyways enough about me. My friend tachi went to the hospital. Her blog is Truthwritter.blogspot.com. It would be really nice if you could leave a comment like get well. I just feel bad for her. She went in with a fever, and came out with numb arms, a sore throat, and an even higher fever. It wasn't the doctors fault it was just her body I guess. I just want her to feel better. And is anyone else who reads this is sick...I hope you feel better too.